well, finally i get to throw what's been bottled up inside of me all this time. i got to chat with my mentor, although he's extremely busy, i think he knew i'm in critical condition, and that 'i am my own best friend' -motto of mine didn't actually work.
anyway, the funny thing was he said, ' what's wrong with you, dude? u r stronger than most ppl your age. come on, you can stand up again, you've been through worse sit than this. Don't you ever give up! DON'T GIVE UP!' it's funny because he's right, i am stronger and i will not give up. i'm gonna keep on fighthing. and then when all of this is over i am gonna come home.
and what a relieve.. it felt so good to finally said those words...
ow.. news flash from home, i rang up my little sis tonight, and she when nuts, she answered the phone and the moment she recognise my voice she started to sing this song:
' ayam ayam... bebek, bebek.. bebek..'
i think she's lonely back home, she's so sweet when she's lonely, don't worry sis, i'm coming back soon, and we'll have our routine arguement in the afternoon again.
i seriously wanna go home, dunno how to break it to little miss r and s though, how should i tell it to them that i don't belong here...