hi there, i'm glad to announce to you that the nightmares has stop. no more nightmares, at least last night's dream is a good one. and it goes like this:
i was in a village, and it's early in the morning, someone knock on my door and asked me if i would like to take a morning walk with him (i couldn't see his face though). so there we went for a walk, the sun was just rising, the smell is very indonesian morning. then dunno how he lead me to this cramp small space which of course being a clusterphobic, i don't like it. he climb up this very steep stairs, dunno why i followed him, although it's very uncomfortable, but he lend his hand to help me climb up. we went up and saw the whole village from high up. the view was not as beautiful as the view in mt cootha. but i feel safe (i'm also affraid of high places) and home i can feel the warmth of home...
then he said,' do you like it?'
... i nodded
...' next time we'll take a walk along the river bed..'
but it's just a dream...