the lucky one

i had a long talked with mr.r over the weekend.. first we only went through the lenses... we argued, but still can't manage to make a desicion over which lens should be use for what...i sighed, it seems to be a very long pointless conversation
then he suddenly said i'm the lucky one... i disagree and then soon we started rambling on about each others misfortune... then there it was we had one thing in common... misfortune... hmm oh well, at least he loosen up a bit and taught me a valuable lesson as well ^^.

end

"i think u've done enough"
"yeah, i think so too.."

and that was the end of it...

to the open road

i'm not feeling very well... more roads are opening up...
too many perhaps for me to choose
i'm not feeling very well, too much bad substance inhaled...
i'm not feeling very well, too many white lies spoke, too many things left unspoken, not many space left for me to pour my heart out...

chasing pavements - adele

Ive made up my mind
dont need to think it over
if im wrong i am right
dont need to look no further
this aint lust i know this is love

but if i tell the world
i'll never say enough
cos it was not said to you
and thats exactly what i need to do
if i end up with you

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place should i leave it there.
should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

i build myself up
and fly around in circles
waiting as my heart drops
and my back begins to tingle
finally could this be it

or should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place should i leave it there.
should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

yeaaah ehh

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place
should i leave it there

should i give up
or should i just keep on chasing pavements
should i just keep on chasing pavements

ohhhh ohh

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place should i leave it there

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

the big fish

happy b-day val ^^

i guess it's time to make the big wish.. i'm old enough to do that now ahahaha >__<
thank you all, everybody seems to remembered what today is. even the x(es) *sigh*... and then the very long *sigh*...

someday val.. someday you'll find someone that you can just be urself.. no more hiding and you can just burst out like a fireworks and it all will be ok >___<

* poof *

*poof* and all is gone...

i told mr. bear what miss s. told me this morning... he was so excited, we got excited actually... then i gave him something, something that only he and i knew... ahaha it was silly actually, but it mean the world to me... >___<

and *poof* all is gone

the tribal council

everything seems to be wrong, even when i try to do something good. what should i do?

walking christmas tree

i finally decided to get out of the house today, i've been in bed rest for 2 days... and i look like a walking christmas tree, coned shaped body, green stripes jacket with orange red t-shirt underneath it. and yes my nose still in its pink 'rudolph' like nose.

it's day 3 in this not working life and i got plenty of things to do.. but can't concentrate doing anything either... oh and yes... i hate sunsets.. i really do...

maybe next wednesday, i'll kiss you...

i'm still in bed rest... silently humming this song by meiko...

Every little thing I do, I do for you
With every little thing I think a thought of you

And I try so hard not to notice
I try so hard not to care
I try so hard not to know that you're not here

But I'm counting down the hours
And I'm counting up the days
I try so hard not to show this side of me

Jealous of the way they walk, the way they talk
'Cause I don't think they know just what they got
Jealous of the way they look, the way they are
When I just want to be the way we were

And I try so hard not to notice
I try so hard not to care
I try so hard not to know that you're not here...

then, something pops up on my screen...
x : val are you in love?
v : maybe..
x : who's the lucky guy?
v : no one in particular
x : that's a bit strange, but it's very you alright... hey val..
v : yeah..
x : about that guy, i think... he never met a specimen like you, so he doesn't know what to do with you...
v : thanks, i guess.. a specimen (o_0)?

it's monday, i love you

i was just finished watching house md, re-runs. and it ends with chase saying "it's tuesday, i love you.." it sounds nice ^^, it's monday, i love you...

it's been a really weird monday morning, i couldn't wake up and it strange because it's ok, i don't have to go to work today, or tomorrow or the day after... my throat sore, couldn't stop coughing and sneezing, and i missed my friend chris thinking maybe chris is not real, maybe he is just a fragment of my imagination...

oh well... i found the perfect soundtrack for today