(heart)

all i got to say is.. "i'm sorry, i (heart) you.."

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i think the other mike is trying to brainwashed me 0_o

everything is blue and gray

i paint my eyes gray today... for some given the certain angle it look blue...

c is still angry, i guess she's very angry, i would too if something like this happened to her. the girl sitting next to me also begins to rambling the same song, to tell you the truth i've never regret anything that has happened in my life even when by the end of the day i'm heartbroken... i admit i was wrong...

i was talking to the other mike about his utopian dream, and why i shouldn't go to boston... been having second thoughts... hmmm... but then i remembered that everything will unfold by itself... i just got to keep my gray eyes opened...

red cross

i'm injured and i'm dizzy.. just dizzy.. bzzzzzzzz

mr. o called me this evening, the usual stuff hi how r u? any new song, little dude? i said 'no', i'm dizzy and out of work... and he said don't worry, i'll call u if something came up... my eyes turn green..

you or someone like you

"you were not who i thought you were"
i was listening to sarah bareilles - love song over and over again, and those words were the only one that i could catch...

i've always known to attract certain types of ppl, whenever i go... dunno what, but there's something in me that made them feel homy. i don't mind really ^^. but you are special case... even i can't help you, even now i wanted so much to belief in you, but what i heard and i see in fact says otherwise...

so i guess it's time to really says good bye...
"good bye to you, or someone like you"

me and my utopian dream

"kamu terlalu baik untukku" i couldn't get it out of my head...

and so it was over, to be frank i was going to break up with him too, but i was going to do it nicely, something that would put a smile in his face, eventhough i'm saying goodbye. that's why i'm stalling ... but he beat me to it...

it was 2am and i was still tossing and turning last night reminiscing... what happened yesterday when i walked in to the office, i told them what happened, and as i looked into their eyes, then i remembered what i told c and how she reacted.. even sal and iddo (to be honest i don't know iddo very well) reacted the same way... i sighed and stare and there they are... my own crowd, the thing i've always wanted, the place where i belong. i smiled and i feel loved... i just got dumped but i feel loved >_< and then i went back to sleep.

there are a lot of things i want to write... i guess it'll have to wait, oneisan is giving her words of advise...

the door

mr. darcy gave me this, this afternoon

Let my love open the door - sondre lerche

When people keep repeating
That you'll never fall in love
When everybody keeps retreating
But you can't seem to get enough
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
To your heart

When everything feels all over
When everybody seems unkind
I'll give you a four-leaf clover
Take all the worry out of your mind
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
To your heart I have the only key to your heart

I can stop you falling apart
Try today, you'll find this way
Come on and give me a chance to say
Let my love open the door

It's all I'm living for
Release yourself from misery
Only one thing's gonna set you free
That's my love
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
To your heart

When tragedy befalls you
Don't let them bring you down
Love can cure your problem
You're so lucky I'm around
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
To your heart

ps. i'll see u soon val :)

shoreline

Shoreline - Deas Vail

So you say I’m better off here,
as dry as the shoreline in an ocean of fear.
And so you say that I can’t be alive
Until there is nothing when we’re meeting eyes
Again
And day by day I wander these halls,
And you’re casting a shadow onto every wall.
And all the way you ring in my ear,
from the moment I knew you were leaving me here.
You were leaving me here.
You were leaving me here.
You were leaving me here.

This give and take, this waiting on time
It’s this twisted up memory that I can’t unwind.
These fragile words that fall from my mouth
And I’m crumbling and crowded, but I’ve figured you out.
I've figured you out.
I've figured you out.
I've figured you out.

The shoreline calls the sea
For simple words and company,
But words go on and on,
Till they collide and all is gone.
I dive into the deep—into the sea inside of me
To find another song,
To find a place where I belong.

The shoreline calls the sea
For simple words and company,
But words go on and on,
Till they collide and all is gone.
I dive into the deep—into the sea inside of me
To find another song,
To find a place where I belong.

I dive into the deep—into the sea inside of me
To find another song,
To find a place where I belong.

c gave this to me this morning...

i (heart) u

it's over..and i can't do this all on my own.. i'm no superman...

(heart) is a very powerful words, even villains have it sometimes. but hey i guess it's save to say now, that yesterday i dreamed someone was helping me throughout my college application process, holding my hands, accompanied me doing this and that, greeted my friends, and i don't know who he is but he was not you...

let's go out and play

v : e, everyone's been talking behind my back
e : that's what ppl do, val..
v : -_- *sigh
e : forget about it.. wanna go out 2morrow nite? i think u need a drink or two or a few
v : agree -_-

me and my lunch box

d : so where we off to today?
v : dunno, somewhere quite and roomy, i got asthma
d : yeah roomy is good, so.. southbank? the usual bench?

i miss d.. haven't talk to her in ages...

dormant

i'm dormant, it's been like this since last year, since.. hmm.. i don't know maybe i've never been fully awake. i am dormant, silently hibernating and sinking deep in my own fantasy. perhaps that's why i never knew you exist, and you are real, as real as i am.

corrupted mind

power corrupt, absolute power corrupt absolutely. and i am ashame of myself.