i have one question in mind,
"is doing something you think you're not good at equals suicide?"
if the answers is yes.. then i'm up for it
25.4.08
21.4.08
happy birthday mr. dandy
it was his birthday ...
and all the things he did not said keeps me puzzled. ahaha >_< ever since we were little, he always good at hiding something from me. but on the contrary... he can always read me like a book ^^.
and all the things he did not said keeps me puzzled. ahaha >_< ever since we were little, he always good at hiding something from me. but on the contrary... he can always read me like a book ^^.
20.4.08
the perfect luncheon
doing things you haven't done in a really long time makes you realize, how similar are you with the rest of the gank... and why did we still stick together you ask? well, it's because we went through hell together and ask nothing in return.
17.4.08
ur father's tractor
monday.. nope it's tuesday 3am... i opened the front door.. say hi to my mom, saying "i'm home". told her what happened at work, and of course i finally told her what happened this last few months. she's not happy about it, but i'm glad i let it out.
i dozed off the entire day, i'm back to my old habits, surprisingly loving it. nervously loving it. and it's all coming back to me, what they said about me at the beginning of my career. *sigh.. i can do this ^^.
ps. mr dandy send me secret message to "hang in there", if i'm not mistaken -_-"
anyway i'm glad he send it, no matter what he's trying to say. it get me through the day
pps. the other mr. r offers me his tractor, so i can execute my mischief plans ^^.
ppps. my toefl score isn't as bad as i predicted ^^
i dozed off the entire day, i'm back to my old habits, surprisingly loving it. nervously loving it. and it's all coming back to me, what they said about me at the beginning of my career. *sigh.. i can do this ^^.
ps. mr dandy send me secret message to "hang in there", if i'm not mistaken -_-"
anyway i'm glad he send it, no matter what he's trying to say. it get me through the day
pps. the other mr. r offers me his tractor, so i can execute my mischief plans ^^.
ppps. my toefl score isn't as bad as i predicted ^^
15.4.08
ugly betty
betty went back to puerto rico...
i missed her too, but someone had to protect her, protect me...
so all what's left is the old griefing val. i am val, i am not her anymore
i missed her too, but someone had to protect her, protect me...
so all what's left is the old griefing val. i am val, i am not her anymore
14.4.08
destination : london
... all i know is i don't want to be here right now. i don't want to have to face tomorrow, i don't to have to deal with grief of losing... i don't want to have all those crazy thoughts of...i don't even want to have to deal with my own memory of...
i want to be in london, where i can go on a merry go round on that picadilly circus, i want to be in london, where you will picked me up by the corner of churchill st and we will go book hunting all day.
i want to be in london, where i can go on a merry go round on that picadilly circus, i want to be in london, where you will picked me up by the corner of churchill st and we will go book hunting all day.
13.4.08
12.4.08
shall we go...
i found my old painting tools plus those blank canvases. there's a box sitting next to it, an old box with stashes of old photos of my grandparents.
i look at them and wept... i want to see my grandma, my aunts says she's funny. i can see that in the picture. she's standing in front of a garden, somewhere in rome and she's wearing kebaya in the middle of spring. i giggles...
i guess oddness in fashion sense runs in the family ^^
so, darling.. shall we go to italy for our honeymoon >___< (please)
i look at them and wept... i want to see my grandma, my aunts says she's funny. i can see that in the picture. she's standing in front of a garden, somewhere in rome and she's wearing kebaya in the middle of spring. i giggles...
i guess oddness in fashion sense runs in the family ^^
so, darling.. shall we go to italy for our honeymoon >___< (please)
10.4.08
an OST.
i know i shouldn't probably published this... but it's my theme song at the moment... after countlessly sung meaningless songs... i found this old record on the stacks of his mp3.
...
It takes some time
God knows how long
I know that I can forget you
As soon as my heart stops breakin'
Anticipating
As soon as forever is through
I'll be over you...
toto - i'll be over you
...
It takes some time
God knows how long
I know that I can forget you
As soon as my heart stops breakin'
Anticipating
As soon as forever is through
I'll be over you...
toto - i'll be over you
9.4.08
me and my room
my room looks like a... ehehe.. i'm so ashame...
you can only imagine what would it be like if you put all the stuff that used to be in my one bedroom apt, to a tiny room ^^. they all still in boxes. plus.. there are also stuff that is not mine. so it's a complete mess...
and while i'm cleaning.. i found:
... lucky charm my aunt made for me
... old photographs of my dad in italy ^^
... my old embarassing library card
... whole other stuff, i shouldn't mention here ^^
you can only imagine what would it be like if you put all the stuff that used to be in my one bedroom apt, to a tiny room ^^. they all still in boxes. plus.. there are also stuff that is not mine. so it's a complete mess...
and while i'm cleaning.. i found:
... lucky charm my aunt made for me
... old photographs of my dad in italy ^^
... my old embarassing library card
... whole other stuff, i shouldn't mention here ^^
6.4.08
blank stares into an empty page
been sitting for hours staring at each others... nothing came up... nothing
2.4.08
the little girl with the big red thing on her hands
i got nothing to do until my meeting at 2pm... still feeling a bit nervous over nothing... so i decide to write a short play instead (this was based on the conversation i had on the weekend).
the little girl with the big red thing on her hands
v : it was broken, but i think it's alright now
r : good then, you can give it to someone else
v : no, that person might break it too
r : maybe but think it should be alright now, it's getting stronger.. it won't break easily
v : no can't do. i'm going to keep it for myself now..
r : for how long? u can't keep that thing to urself forever, val. you'll be lonely... you should give it to other person 1st, then perhaps you'll get a new one you can keep.. maybe perhaps forever...
v : (stay perfectly still and then she gave up her hands)
the little girl with the big red thing on her hands
v : it was broken, but i think it's alright now
r : good then, you can give it to someone else
v : no, that person might break it too
r : maybe but think it should be alright now, it's getting stronger.. it won't break easily
v : no can't do. i'm going to keep it for myself now..
r : for how long? u can't keep that thing to urself forever, val. you'll be lonely... you should give it to other person 1st, then perhaps you'll get a new one you can keep.. maybe perhaps forever...
v : (stay perfectly still and then she gave up her hands)
another episode of...
... lost
once you get older, all of it is up to you to decide... and you will also hold the consequences. but before that, there is other things you should consider b4 making up ur mind... and those thing makes it even harder to decide. i'm truly are lost...
once you get older, all of it is up to you to decide... and you will also hold the consequences. but before that, there is other things you should consider b4 making up ur mind... and those thing makes it even harder to decide. i'm truly are lost...
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