while watching the emmy

hmm... i thought the nightmares are over for sure, but it didn't. i couldn't sleep, rain keep pouring in my cheeks. and as usual no one was there... the funny thing is i don't remember why and what? why did i cried all night? but it did affect my mood today.. hmm..-_- i was sad and gloomy, couldn't event think... feels like talking and pour my hearts out but no one was there...