roads

i've chat with Ton, appearently we are in the same sit (situation.red)
and also apearently we are young and ambitious.. well not really, maybe.. curios is the right word for it, and just entering the world of working environment and also just knowing the thing called Professionalism, being a professional Designers...
yes us, the two students who always seems to have something to play with during class -_-

ough Ommo, there's so many choices to make, and since we last talk, another road had suddenly apeared in my juction... what should i do?

i love u, ommo

i thought i have chosen my path, but i haven't really ...
i've chose a path only to find out that my passion is on the other side ...
so now i'm back in this crossroad, i've asked a couple of people but they can't help me either,
but one was wise enough to tell me that this junction was mine, it has my name on it...
and another one have a vague guess on where you are, ommo...
i want to be there with you, ommo, but the road is long and fogy and it needs a 4wd, and i don't have one...
but i'll get there, my journey may took longer than expected but i'll be there with you, ommo... it's a promise -_-

giacommo

i don't know how to begin this tale... hmm maybe it is not supposed to be told after all -_-
that we have build an empire, giacommo...
that we are part of something big...

crosswords puzzle

gue merasa sedang berada dipersimpangan jalan nih, rasanya membingungkan sekali harus ke kiri apa kanan apa lurus terus. i can't see what on the other side pula. hmm... -_-

you are an elephant

hula girl

we were still talking about friday's event yesterday at lunch... well i didn't contribute much, i was just listening very carefully... then

l : val, muka loe kok lebih pucet dari s?
v : soalnya kmaren itu dia ngomong ke gue .... (cencored)
a : hey anak muda, ngapain loe musingin hal kayak gitu, loe itu harusnya pusing kalo di bawah (hero) nggak ada es hula hula
v : oh iya anda benar jg bpk tua...

es hula hula penghilang segala duka lara >_<

it's a wake up call

kecewa... iya, menyerah.. tidak, gue nyerah, untuk hal yg satu ini tidak akan!!!

ps1. i wish rubber snake toys was never invented
ps2. thank you miss r you've lighten my day, and i'm sorry too -_-

charm bracelet

walaupun saat ini gue sedang cape bgt, ngantuks berats akibat krg tidur... tapi gue sebenarnya gue bahagia, i've been lucky.
kerja keras gue akhirnya mendapat pengakuan dari client, walaupun karya gue itu blom tentu akan dipublish krn masih hrs bersaing dng senior2 gue dan juga dng designer2 dr agency sebelah. tapi gpp setidaknya ibu client itu mengerti pesan gue >_<

2007

selama beberapa hari belakangan ini gue menggira skg th 2007 -_-

the mimi show?

di tengah... kegelisahan dan kekesalan gue krn illus yg sdh 2x 'unexpectedly quit' gue mendengar...

'but life isn't supposed to be easy..'

gue denger itu dari radio, good one mrs. radio announcer!

blame it on folder

have you heard a song called 'foder' by plastic operator?
entah knp lagu ini bisa membuat gue spt jatuh cinta, padahal gue lg ga naksir siapa2 -_-
aneh...

tadi malem gue mimpi...
seseorg yg gue kenal, ngapelin gue... namun yg kulakukan hanyalah tertidur di sofa -_-

august in jakarta

bulan agustus di jakarta itu sangat panas sekali.. sangat extrim sampai mata gue terasa perih, memandangin jendela kantor. (station gue di kantor pas menghadap jendela. jadi mau nggak mau memang hrs memandangi jendela.red)

so.. solusi yg pas selain berdoa memohon hujan, gue menutup tirai jendela (biasanya gue paling anti, krn gue org yg tdk bisa hidup tanpa melihat pemandangan dr jendela.red), dan mengganti wallpaper desktop gue huhuhu... oh iya supaya acara hujan buatan lebih seru gue jg menyiapkan teh hangat satu teapot penuh disamping compie gue huhuhuhuhu >_<

salad head

rencananya gambar ini akan gue sulam di t-shirt, berhub gue nggak tau cara memakai mesin jahit, maka i'm gonna do it manually...

lagi2 menunggu giliran ngeprint di kantor... T_T

weekend ini.. keep staring at the window wishing i'm somewhere else... doing something else... gue butuh kebebasan gue kembali... pingin bebas sebebas2nya!!!!

phoenix

it's an old song, but i feel that i liked it much better now, well... i can relate to part of it now -_-


If I Ever Feel Better - Phoenix

They say an end can be a start
Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive
It's like a bad day that never ends
I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don't try to deny
I'd better learn to accept that
There are things in my life that I can't control

They say love ain't nothing but a sore
I don't even know what love is
Too many tears have had to fall
Don't you know I'm so tired of it all
I have known terror dizzy spells
Finding out the secrets words won't tell
Whatever it is it can't be named

There's a part of my world that' s fading away
You know I don't want to be clever
To be brilliant or superior
True like ice, true like fire
Now I know that a breeze can blow me away
Now I know there's much more dignity
In defeat than in the brightest victory
I'm losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

Hang on to the good days
I can lean on my friends
They help me going through hard times
But I'm feeding the enemy
I'm in league with the foe
Blame me for what's happening
I can't try, I can't try, I can't try...

No one knows the hard times I went through
If happiness came I miss the call
The stormy days ain't over
I've tried and lost know I think that I pay the cost
Now I've watched all my castles fall
They were made of dust, after al
Someday all this mess will make me laugh
I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait...

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

It's like somebody took my place
I ain't even playing my own game
The rules have changed well I didn't know
There are things in my life I can't control
I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don't try to deny
I'd better learn to accept that
There's a part of my life that will go away

Dark is the night, cold is the ground
In the circular solitude of my heart
As one who strives a hill to climb
I am sure I'll come through I don't know how
They say an end can be a start
Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive
I'm losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

fiddle me this fiddle me that...

rasanya ingin melarikan diri ya...

middle point

i've just read one of my friend's fs blog, she said she wanted to go home, and didn't want to leave in bne anymore. i've been there once, di situasi yg sama, semester terakhir, lagi magang dan kuliah, mesti mikirin konsep buat end of year portfolio (yg bisa dikatakan jg penentu masa depan gue.red). akhirnya gue mutusin balik ke jkt... tapi skg... gue kangen bgt sama bne, khususnya tempat diatas itu -_-

fumble crumble

mau tau tdk berapa lama daku menunggu utk antre printer? skg sdh hampir 2 jam -_-
printer kantor bapuks krg ajar!!! skg gue terjabak di kantor dan hanya bisa memandangi kilat2 dari jendela kantor.

sejujurnya hari2 gue masih tetap sendu semenjak minggu, masih blom pulih sampai kmaren gue menemukan kata2 ini pas nonton toky drift, '... life is short, you make choices and never look back...'
mungkin itu yg seharusnya gue lakukan skg, DON'T LOOK BACK! it's hard though, not looking back on the choices i've made... krn keberadaan gue sampai detik ini kalau ditelusuri lagi memang krn keputusan yg gue buat berdasarkan rasa penasaran 7 th yg lalu dan dng impian akan masa dpn yg cerah...

impian itu memang sedikit demi sedikit sedang gue jalanin, namun gue lupa bahwa semua itu ada efek sampingnya... gue lupa memperhitungkan hal yg satu itu. dan mungkin yg skg gue alami adl shockyness (i'm sure there's a better word for that, but i don't know what that is.red)

tapi yah.. tapi kata2 menyakitkan yg dialamatkan kpd gue hr minggu itu bukannya tak beralasan jg sih... kata2 itu keluar berdasarkan rasa panik akan keberadaan diri gue sendiri, or should i say keselamatan gue. dan berhub gue memang selalu cekcok dng beliau... gue nggak bisa menerima kata2 itu.

outburst

it was not a fun weekend, hampir terjebak ditengah kerumunan demonstran -_-
but that was not the worst part ... -_- and as much as i want to wrote it down what really happened on last sunday ... i can't, i'm too emotional right now, i don't wanna wrote something i'll regret later...