wr..

tampaknya setiap langkah yg gue ambil salah akhir2 ini, termasuk jg feeling gue ttg tempat curhat gue. ternyata dia bukan org yg tempat utk daku berkeluh kesah -_-...

no seriously do you got milk?

i got another brief for a milk packaging... altough this time the client gives more freedom, i'm stuck. it feels like i'm running out of 'designy' brain juice... got lot of examples from books and images from the net, they all look fab, but anyhu i still have no idea what so ever, on what, or how mine would look like. on the other hand...

my md/cd has been asking me about this project with a 'concerned/panicking' mimik on her face. but i keep saying 'i'm still doodleling'. she replied, '..(i couldn't remembered clearly)...' sounds like she's expecting more of me.

wish me luck ok -_- hope i will come out with something dashing/ smashing/ fab b4 friday, or i'm a dead meat!!!

got milk?

hmm.. have you ever been in a situation or should i say you are in trouble -big one- and you can only think of a name, and you wanted so bad to call this person, not necessarily hoping that he/she can help you, but you just thought that person could at least would listen to you.

well.. i'm in that situation right now... i dunno if i should call you, but your name keeps hanging around in my head for these past few days. but on the other hand i dunno if i should tell you about the probs i've been having... maybe it's my ego.. i don't want you to know that i makes mistakes, and i'm not as perfect as you thought i was...

sulur sulur waktu

sometimes i wonder if i could make times run slower... or perhaps i could go back in time and see the moment when i started to become someone else. oh well...

sepiiii...

gue sedang berusaha utk selalu berpikir positif, tapi akhirnya hari ini nggak tahan jg... gue hrs melepaskan rasa kekesalan gue. maaf ya, maaf bgt.

lalu ada kabar apa lagi ya? oh iya ada sms nyasar yg selalu berakhiran dng 'blz' ya dsr gue jg krg kerjaan akhirnya gue bales lah sms itu... tapi lama2 jd annoying jg. siapa pun jg dirimu maaf ya.
lalu ... hmm... kerja gue sedang tidak bagus, slow dan sering stuck. ada sst yg menghalangi gue untuk menuangkan ide yg ada di otak gue ke dalam layar komputer. oleh sebab itu gue mendapat teguran dari md/cd. tapi dilain pihak dia gue jg mendapat masukan dari beliau (terima kasih ibunya.red). lalu sehubungan dng hal itu, senior2 ku berkata 'sebenarnya loe itu punya potensi, loe udah punya karakter sendiri...' (not the exact words sih, tapi kira2 intinya begitu.red) terus terang gue kaget. benarkah potensi gue sedasyat itu? hmm... baiklah gue akan terus berusaha!!!

v : tebak gue ada dimana sekarang
d : di kantor kah
v : ya! seratus!!!

design has no boundary...
and i should always have a happy thoughts...

i want that dinosaurs candy

been working late last week. crazy deadlines plus i missed interpret the brief, and been running on a slow mode.

hmm.. have i told you about my cousin's son? yep i gotta baby nephew... kadang sepupuku itu suka menitipkan dia ke rumah seperti halnya kemarin. well, one leads to another... while my mom was holding my nephew she asked the thing i've been avoiding -the boyfriend issue-... hmm i really don't wanna think about it...

anxiety disorder

well, someone has offered me a side job >_< hooray!!!! i tell you all about it after i got the brief.

weekend ini sangat melelahkan, walaupun gue udah tidur 1/2 hari sabtu, tp sabtu malam terpaksa tidak tidur, krn ade' gue tdk bisa tidur, jadi terpaksa gue nemenin... dan terpaksa gue membeberkan smua kisah cinta gue (berhub kt nggak ada bahan pembicaraan lain). minggu pagi bgn jam 6 kurang -ke greja-pulang, sarapan-ke bogor, nenggok sodara yg baru saja melahirkan-lunch di puncak-ke bandung, jemput ade gue yg satu lagi-pulang ke jakarta...

senin pagi, mendung, di kantor sepi sekali... -_-
daftar project s/d tgl 9 june lumayan banyak (terus terang gue senang dan sedih di saat yg bersamaan -_-)

playlist ipod gue:
1. anja garbarek - the last trick
2. beth orton - concieved
3. corinne bailey rae - put your records on

saatnya bekerja...

setelah sekian lama akhirnya i can chat with soleh -_- hmm... pembicaraan kita tidak penting sih.. tapi inilah yg terjadi at the end of our conversation:
v : 'kok gue sekarang jadi freak begini ya leh?'
s : 'udah dari dulu kok !'
v : -_-!

catatan rahasia no.102

ramalan bintang bulan ini bersinar cerah buat gue... namun, rasanya nggak mungkin ajah gitu. impossible. ingin berharap... sangat ingin berharap ramalan itu menjadi kenyataan.

rasanya seneng jg sih, setelah seminggu ini yg gue dapat hanya kabar buruk, running out of ideas, tenggorokan bengkak dan kehilangan semangat untuk doing the ewok dance -_-

ya sud sekian duls, tugas gue bertumpuk...

working on a sat morning

harusnya gue bekerja.. tapi gue chat ama wiki dan entah kenapa gue menanggis...
i guess i miss her too much...

it feels like i'm flying solo...

catatan rahasia #101

sebenarnya gue pingin punya sedan VW, tapi apa daya jakarta hujan terus menerus...

lets do the ewok dance

one rainy day on the 6th floor of an office building...
i sat down on my desk, i put my jumper on as well as the hood on my jumper, the deadline was tomorrow... and in the mist of panic rush, my body moved (unconciously) to the beat of earth wind and fire - dancing in september...
then a voice shout... 'hahaha eh loe kalo diliat dari belakang kayak EWOK deh ahahaha LOL!', and since that i am ewok.. -_-

the devil wears prada

things get out of hands this week, it probably the saddes week and most uncomfortable week i had so far, i've betrayed a friend and been betrayed by a friend too.

feels like crying but no one wants to lend a shoulder...
things a very confusing for me right now, i've lost my way, again...

goodbye goodnight

yah gue gagal nonton goodnight electric -_-
sebenarnya gue blom pulih dari kekecewaan gue ttg jamie cullumn yg cuman mampir ke singapore dan tidak ke jakarta sekalian, dan gue berharap goodnight electric bisa menghibur gue, tapi yah.. -_-

the pack!

i took the most drowsy flu pills this morning, so just guess away how am i doing in the office...-_-
plus sandra's words seems to be a bad news for me -_-

well, yesterday, the day b4 the 'long' weekend, i've made a pack with 'd' that we should never forget each other bahkan disaat kita sudah tidak 'sendiri' lagi >_<.. i made her promise me that because i got a hint that ahahahaha.. i shouldn't mention it, i might jinxed her. well, anyhu i've lost friends b4 just because they've got bf/gf... and i don't want that to happened again, i don't want to feel that sudden loneliness again... at least we can keep chatting or sms or e-mails ...

oh that reminds me the pack that i've made with wiki, that we should send each other wedding invitations ahahaha >_<

back to sandra's words, she didn't mean no harm, just spitting out office facts, and it sounded like a bad news for me... gosh, life's really are tough! okure, better get to work...

i'm your cupu nerd ex girlfriend

well, i got nothing to do, so i guess another update...

not long after my conversation with 'd', i had this dream that i met someone in the past, who used to be very closed to me..
well, i just said, ...' hi, udah lama nggak ketemu ya' and he didn't said anything, he just held my hand and we're off somewhere...

and the truth is dunno why and for some reason 'dia' suka muncul dipikiran gue akhir2 ini... maybe i just wanted to know how's he been doing, it's been years... (at this point gue menyesal dulu gue galak bgt, maafkan saya ya...)

cupu nerd

back in jakarta, hmm...

well, someone has asked me this ?s
d: ... val, loe kapan nih?
v: ntar dulu deh satu2, gue baru dapet kerja...
d: ah eloe, dari dulu jawabannya itu terus!!!

well, after i think about it she's right, there's always something in my mind hehehehe... thanks 4 ur concern 'd', to be honest i've thought about it, just dunno where to start or how even...