yah gue gagal nonton goodnight electric -_-
sebenarnya gue blom pulih dari kekecewaan gue ttg jamie cullumn yg cuman mampir ke singapore dan tidak ke jakarta sekalian, dan gue berharap goodnight electric bisa menghibur gue, tapi yah.. -_-
28.4.06
17.4.06
the pack!
i took the most drowsy flu pills this morning, so just guess away how am i doing in the office...-_-
plus sandra's words seems to be a bad news for me -_-
well, yesterday, the day b4 the 'long' weekend, i've made a pack with 'd' that we should never forget each other bahkan disaat kita sudah tidak 'sendiri' lagi >_<.. i made her promise me that because i got a hint that ahahahaha.. i shouldn't mention it, i might jinxed her. well, anyhu i've lost friends b4 just because they've got bf/gf... and i don't want that to happened again, i don't want to feel that sudden loneliness again... at least we can keep chatting or sms or e-mails ...
oh that reminds me the pack that i've made with wiki, that we should send each other wedding invitations ahahaha >_<
back to sandra's words, she didn't mean no harm, just spitting out office facts, and it sounded like a bad news for me... gosh, life's really are tough! okure, better get to work...
plus sandra's words seems to be a bad news for me -_-
well, yesterday, the day b4 the 'long' weekend, i've made a pack with 'd' that we should never forget each other bahkan disaat kita sudah tidak 'sendiri' lagi >_<.. i made her promise me that because i got a hint that ahahahaha.. i shouldn't mention it, i might jinxed her. well, anyhu i've lost friends b4 just because they've got bf/gf... and i don't want that to happened again, i don't want to feel that sudden loneliness again... at least we can keep chatting or sms or e-mails ...
oh that reminds me the pack that i've made with wiki, that we should send each other wedding invitations ahahaha >_<
back to sandra's words, she didn't mean no harm, just spitting out office facts, and it sounded like a bad news for me... gosh, life's really are tough! okure, better get to work...
13.4.06
i'm your cupu nerd ex girlfriend
well, i got nothing to do, so i guess another update...
not long after my conversation with 'd', i had this dream that i met someone in the past, who used to be very closed to me..
well, i just said, ...' hi, udah lama nggak ketemu ya' and he didn't said anything, he just held my hand and we're off somewhere...
and the truth is dunno why and for some reason 'dia' suka muncul dipikiran gue akhir2 ini... maybe i just wanted to know how's he been doing, it's been years... (at this point gue menyesal dulu gue galak bgt, maafkan saya ya...)
not long after my conversation with 'd', i had this dream that i met someone in the past, who used to be very closed to me..
well, i just said, ...' hi, udah lama nggak ketemu ya' and he didn't said anything, he just held my hand and we're off somewhere...
and the truth is dunno why and for some reason 'dia' suka muncul dipikiran gue akhir2 ini... maybe i just wanted to know how's he been doing, it's been years... (at this point gue menyesal dulu gue galak bgt, maafkan saya ya...)
cupu nerd
back in jakarta, hmm...
well, someone has asked me this ?s
d: ... val, loe kapan nih?
v: ntar dulu deh satu2, gue baru dapet kerja...
d: ah eloe, dari dulu jawabannya itu terus!!!
well, after i think about it she's right, there's always something in my mind hehehehe... thanks 4 ur concern 'd', to be honest i've thought about it, just dunno where to start or how even...
well, someone has asked me this ?s
d: ... val, loe kapan nih?
v: ntar dulu deh satu2, gue baru dapet kerja...
d: ah eloe, dari dulu jawabannya itu terus!!!
well, after i think about it she's right, there's always something in my mind hehehehe... thanks 4 ur concern 'd', to be honest i've thought about it, just dunno where to start or how even...
3.4.06
28.3.06
surealist
ternyata susah2 gampang ngerjain sst yg berbau surealist -_- and i feel like i'm still in uni, doing research for this project. well... that was b4 i learned that the competitor's also using surealist.. so... i guess abandon ship...
3 hari yg lalu gue nggak bisa tidur, 2 hari yg lalu gue tidur pules bgt, tadi malam gue kembali tidak bisa... yg benar2 tidak bisa tidur (plus pinggang gue sakit bgt, gue rasa-_-... gue berumur 22th dan gue menderita insomnia, dan sakit pinggang, plus sedikit krisis identitas... gwt hal ini tak boleh dibiarkan berlarut-larut.
hmm... berita selanjutnya... gue baru kmaren kerja nonstop dng konsentrasi tinggi (hebat!!! val!) alhasil, leher jg ikut sakit, tapi gue senang >_< malemnya makan di sushi tei krn baru ada yg dpt promotion >_<
hmm satu lagi, berhub gue alegrian paling muda dan tampaknya satu2nya yg tdk punya love life... munculah pertanyaan ini---> "emang tipe co loe yg kayak apa sih?"
hmm... yg seperti apa ya? terus terang gue jg bingung -_- yg jelas lebih tinggi, lebih tua 3-5th, lebih item dikit, lebih pinter dari gue, dan orgnya tegas! terlalu berlebihan nggak sih? mungkin pertanyaan ini jg yg bikin gue nggak bisa tidur semalem, gue sendiri nggak jelas maunya apa?
3 hari yg lalu gue nggak bisa tidur, 2 hari yg lalu gue tidur pules bgt, tadi malam gue kembali tidak bisa... yg benar2 tidak bisa tidur (plus pinggang gue sakit bgt, gue rasa-_-... gue berumur 22th dan gue menderita insomnia, dan sakit pinggang, plus sedikit krisis identitas... gwt hal ini tak boleh dibiarkan berlarut-larut.
hmm... berita selanjutnya... gue baru kmaren kerja nonstop dng konsentrasi tinggi (hebat!!! val!) alhasil, leher jg ikut sakit, tapi gue senang >_< malemnya makan di sushi tei krn baru ada yg dpt promotion >_<
hmm satu lagi, berhub gue alegrian paling muda dan tampaknya satu2nya yg tdk punya love life... munculah pertanyaan ini---> "emang tipe co loe yg kayak apa sih?"
hmm... yg seperti apa ya? terus terang gue jg bingung -_- yg jelas lebih tinggi, lebih tua 3-5th, lebih item dikit, lebih pinter dari gue, dan orgnya tegas! terlalu berlebihan nggak sih? mungkin pertanyaan ini jg yg bikin gue nggak bisa tidur semalem, gue sendiri nggak jelas maunya apa?
23.3.06
utter madnes
lack of sleep.. not because i have to work late, but simply because i couldn't sleep -_- (it's been 3 days.red)
i also feel that lately there's no space to be valcory... i am someone else, someone who easily get caried away. which is not good...
'we need to do something...,' naz said.. it seems that she's the only one who could understand what i'm feeling right now.
i also feel that lately there's no space to be valcory... i am someone else, someone who easily get caried away. which is not good...
'we need to do something...,' naz said.. it seems that she's the only one who could understand what i'm feeling right now.
18.3.06
akhir2 ini gue merasa, masukan gue kurang dewasa. gue merasa kurang dewasa dlm menyikapi sst, kurang dewasa dlm memberikan komentar dll deh...
emang sih gue akui bahwa berat untuk gue menghilangkan rasa sakit hati, jika gue merasa diperlakukan tidak adil, dan sebenarnya karena gue itu orgnya merasa lebih lega jika hal2 itu gue utarakan secara terbuka, gue merasa banyak org yg salah paham, bahkan kadang nggak ngerti dan takut sama gue, jadinya masalah itu dibiarkan begitu saja, dan mereka mengalihkan topik.
sebenarnya juga gue tau kalo nggak smua hal bisa gue utarakan apa adanya. memang ada hal2 yg sebaiknya gue lupakan saja. tapi kalau gue melakukan itu sikap gue ke org itu tdk akan sama... gue akan selalu jaga jarak, sampai suatu hari nanti gue mengerti mengapa dia melakukan hal itu atau mengapa dia memperlakukan gue seperti itu...
gue harap waktu nya tidak lama, karena terus terang kesabaran gue sudah mulai menipis... dan gue harap penjelasan itu datang segera sebelum gue kehilangan rasa 'kepercayaan' gue sepenuhnya...
emang sih gue akui bahwa berat untuk gue menghilangkan rasa sakit hati, jika gue merasa diperlakukan tidak adil, dan sebenarnya karena gue itu orgnya merasa lebih lega jika hal2 itu gue utarakan secara terbuka, gue merasa banyak org yg salah paham, bahkan kadang nggak ngerti dan takut sama gue, jadinya masalah itu dibiarkan begitu saja, dan mereka mengalihkan topik.
sebenarnya juga gue tau kalo nggak smua hal bisa gue utarakan apa adanya. memang ada hal2 yg sebaiknya gue lupakan saja. tapi kalau gue melakukan itu sikap gue ke org itu tdk akan sama... gue akan selalu jaga jarak, sampai suatu hari nanti gue mengerti mengapa dia melakukan hal itu atau mengapa dia memperlakukan gue seperti itu...
gue harap waktu nya tidak lama, karena terus terang kesabaran gue sudah mulai menipis... dan gue harap penjelasan itu datang segera sebelum gue kehilangan rasa 'kepercayaan' gue sepenuhnya...
15.3.06
14.3.06
di edo
usually gue nggak suka lagu indo kalo gue tau lagunya mirip sama lagu luar. tapi... utk kasus sandy-sabtu minggu ini lain, gue tau lagu itu 'jack johnson' bgt, dan gue tetep suka >_< ahahaha..
it's a quite birthday yesterday, but i like it. i enjoyed every second of it. yesterday was exciting, happy, a bit nervous and of course i got sudden rush of panick. hmm... and also... for a spilt seconds i missed bne -_-
i dunno what else am going to say... except for thank you guys for making my day...
it's a quite birthday yesterday, but i like it. i enjoyed every second of it. yesterday was exciting, happy, a bit nervous and of course i got sudden rush of panick. hmm... and also... for a spilt seconds i missed bne -_-
i dunno what else am going to say... except for thank you guys for making my day...
9.3.06
wind chime
well, ttg kasus sobat gue itu.. ternyata sudah merupakan fenomena alam. jadi gue harap memakluminya...
4.3.06
discovery channel
hari ini pake bahasa saja ya, lagi cape...
sebenarnya kmaren itu gue seneng karena gue menemukan bahwa masih ada yg berusaha keep in touch ahahaha >_<,
sebenarnya gue jg merasa bersalah karena selama ini gue tidak melihat bahwa beberapa orang telah berusaha menjadi teman yang tulus dan setia menemani gue. sedangkan gue nampaknya kurang memperhatikan mereka. maafkan saya ya, teman2. gue jg sedih karena sebenarnya gue juga merasa bahwa salah satu dari sobatku hanya peduli pada pujaan haitnya saja, dan nampak gue hanya ada di otaknya dikala dia sedang jauh dari doinya dan itu membuatku sedih.
anyhu gtg untuk membalas surat2 penggemar
sebenarnya kmaren itu gue seneng karena gue menemukan bahwa masih ada yg berusaha keep in touch ahahaha >_<,
sebenarnya gue jg merasa bersalah karena selama ini gue tidak melihat bahwa beberapa orang telah berusaha menjadi teman yang tulus dan setia menemani gue. sedangkan gue nampaknya kurang memperhatikan mereka. maafkan saya ya, teman2. gue jg sedih karena sebenarnya gue juga merasa bahwa salah satu dari sobatku hanya peduli pada pujaan haitnya saja, dan nampak gue hanya ada di otaknya dikala dia sedang jauh dari doinya dan itu membuatku sedih.
anyhu gtg untuk membalas surat2 penggemar
3.3.06
not much
well, not much i can tell you right now.. hmm.. the latest news is that i got a job >_< yeah ahahahahaha finally. what drives me mad is that, on my 1st day of work i got a call from another agency, saying that i got to be in their office by 2morrow 4 an interview ... hmm -_- (knp disaat tdk dibutuhkan lagi barulah telponku berdering.red)
all i can say is that all of my projects turn out to be disaster! (honestly i feel like i'm gonna get fired in the next month or two.red). entah karena panik dng lingkungan baru ato emang otak gue masih dormant, but i loose my touch -_-...
lately i've realise that it's really easy to loose something over a silly things. really really stupid. if you thing about it...
all i can say is that all of my projects turn out to be disaster! (honestly i feel like i'm gonna get fired in the next month or two.red). entah karena panik dng lingkungan baru ato emang otak gue masih dormant, but i loose my touch -_-...
lately i've realise that it's really easy to loose something over a silly things. really really stupid. if you thing about it...
11.2.06
freak school
Well then again I’m here sitting, staring, writing, fixing, singing, whilst trying, trying to find what I know it’s there, somewhere hidden. I just know that it’s there somewhere. Something I have always wish I had. I’ve seen it before, I’m so sure of it. It would probably there in front of me just lying still, dormant (my sister like to called it hibernate, I’m not sure what does it mean though.red). I know it is there somewhere, I just feel it.. no… I just found it a moment a go, but now… I’ve lost it again. Sometimes it’s there I can see it and it’s available for me to used it, but most of the time, I can’t find it anywhere.
3.2.06
i hate grapes
yup there you go, i hate grapes.
maybe i need to redefine myself, my goals...
maybe...
maybe i'm not supposed to be a graphic artist, maybe ...
maybe i need to redefine myself, my goals...
maybe...
maybe i'm not supposed to be a graphic artist, maybe ...
20.1.06
the story of the globe trekker
hmm.. i've just visited my eye doctor (i'm sure there's a name for it but i couldn't remember.red) i quite like her, she's chill, very nice, sangat tenang. as if my porblem were not a big deal.
haven't been doing a lot lately, to be honest i still don't know what to do? nothing is fun anymore. everything i do just add more confusion in my brain. oh well...
haven't been doing a lot lately, to be honest i still don't know what to do? nothing is fun anymore. everything i do just add more confusion in my brain. oh well...
18.1.06
the stary eyes
i'm not even sure if spelled that correctly.. haha
right now i'm addicted to korean tv series, so far i can only say helo, ok, i understand, and mother, ahahahaha and i'm also addicted to jamie cullumn-photograph (it's a song title.red)
for the last 15 minutes i've been staring at this job advert, haih... it seems that i don't have the courage to reply -_-.
-o- and it's also hard to say good bye to old and bad habbit isn't it? but i gotta try harder! AZA AZA FIGHTING!!! (ahahaha one of the lead female characters of the korean series like to say that >_<).
oh yes, my mobile phone has finally broken after 2 years -_-, so for these couple of days i had no phone -_-. so sad
right now i'm addicted to korean tv series, so far i can only say helo, ok, i understand, and mother, ahahahaha and i'm also addicted to jamie cullumn-photograph (it's a song title.red)
for the last 15 minutes i've been staring at this job advert, haih... it seems that i don't have the courage to reply -_-.
-o- and it's also hard to say good bye to old and bad habbit isn't it? but i gotta try harder! AZA AZA FIGHTING!!! (ahahaha one of the lead female characters of the korean series like to say that >_<).
oh yes, my mobile phone has finally broken after 2 years -_-, so for these couple of days i had no phone -_-. so sad
12.1.06
photograph
when i look back on my ordinary, ordinary life
i see so much magic though i missed it at the time...
photograph - jamie cullum
sitting still in my home pc and think, whilst my eyes still looking for that magical words 'GRAPHIC DESIGNER NEEDED' which now made it seems impossible to be found.
in my mind goes: i've become the person i hate the most. i've said something snobby yesterday, i've seen the look on their face, and now i felt guilty. why? why? why did i said what i've said!!! why can i be just that nice person, why can just keep my opinion for myself. i guess it's time to make a new year resolution!!
1. always keep those sarcastic opinion to myself
2. always smile
3. always keeps a happy thoughts!
4. learn to drive properly!
i missed having the freedom to wonder off on my own!
i see so much magic though i missed it at the time...
photograph - jamie cullum
sitting still in my home pc and think, whilst my eyes still looking for that magical words 'GRAPHIC DESIGNER NEEDED' which now made it seems impossible to be found.
in my mind goes: i've become the person i hate the most. i've said something snobby yesterday, i've seen the look on their face, and now i felt guilty. why? why? why did i said what i've said!!! why can i be just that nice person, why can just keep my opinion for myself. i guess it's time to make a new year resolution!!
1. always keep those sarcastic opinion to myself
2. always smile
3. always keeps a happy thoughts!
4. learn to drive properly!
i missed having the freedom to wonder off on my own!
7.1.06
me 1st and the gimmies gimmies part 2
hmm... jakarta, home sweet home...
it's only been 3 weeks, but i missed bne already. i missed my freedom actually. i got sick just a week after i arrive in jkt. i was sick in new year's eve -_-.
i went on a holiday with my family just after christmas, it was supposed to be fun, but cos i'm sick... i can't really enjoyed it. but although i'm sick i'm still a shopaholic -_-.
and now for a v update
well, i'm getting better still a bit a-s, haven't got a job. i'm in bandung right now, at my sis' place. i got nothing to do in jakarta, so i just followed her here. dunno why ppl have been looking at me as though i'm an allien or some kind, or maybe that's just my feeling. and because of that, i've been throwing some harsh comments lately, my youngest sister kinda forced me shut my mouth -_-
been having trouble with indo ppl who seems to have problem with the idea of queing! i didn't set up new year's resolution this year.
it's only been 3 weeks, but i missed bne already. i missed my freedom actually. i got sick just a week after i arrive in jkt. i was sick in new year's eve -_-.
i went on a holiday with my family just after christmas, it was supposed to be fun, but cos i'm sick... i can't really enjoyed it. but although i'm sick i'm still a shopaholic -_-.
and now for a v update
well, i'm getting better still a bit a-s, haven't got a job. i'm in bandung right now, at my sis' place. i got nothing to do in jakarta, so i just followed her here. dunno why ppl have been looking at me as though i'm an allien or some kind, or maybe that's just my feeling. and because of that, i've been throwing some harsh comments lately, my youngest sister kinda forced me shut my mouth -_-
been having trouble with indo ppl who seems to have problem with the idea of queing! i didn't set up new year's resolution this year.
21.12.05
sunrise at singapore
the day has finally come... had a mixed feeling about it, a bit panick, but hey i've made it to singapore...
i couldn't sleep as usuall, but when the stewardes finally arrive to offer me breakfast, i couldn't opened my eyes... yup i had lack of coordination in between my body functions -_-
anyhu... d help me get through my final hours in bne, thanks d, i really appriciated... the things between d and s is starting to get better (yeay...), even e is trying to make things better between them... that's good, a nice end to this year..
gtg don't have a lot time for internet...
i couldn't sleep as usuall, but when the stewardes finally arrive to offer me breakfast, i couldn't opened my eyes... yup i had lack of coordination in between my body functions -_-
anyhu... d help me get through my final hours in bne, thanks d, i really appriciated... the things between d and s is starting to get better (yeay...), even e is trying to make things better between them... that's good, a nice end to this year..
gtg don't have a lot time for internet...
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