it's nearly the end of the year again... and yes i've got no plans for new year's eve. and i haven't really write much after mr. a told me not to pour my heart out on a pixelated web page.

i am inarticulate

I like you too much
After too little time
I hold back my heart’s crazy rambling
The fear that I should overwhelm your smile
Frightens the spiders inside me

-after all, sondre lerche-

the irresistible

well.. to tell you the truth i finally got the truly 'irresistible' offer. yup my heart wants to yes right away.. but i guess there are more things that i need to reconsider 0_o.

secret note #43

psst... it's a secret..

ur sister...

a lot has happened in this few weeks, well not a lot but not just a few either.
well, i got new resposibilities, and joined a club called chubbyduters, maybe got a secret admire (just maybe..), and i got my old 'subscription' back.

and i was talking to miss c 'america' about her sister, she's a lot like me, and it makes me wonder if she is me in the near future?

really

i just can believe it's really happening... and it's coming sooner rather than later...
i'm going to see you afterall, ommo... ^^

surviving it

i know it all had to stop. but it seemed that i couldn't stop dreaming about it.. dreaming about him..., dreaming about him and it, dreaming about me and him and it, ... dreaming about our it.

usually most of my dreams came true, but i don't think it will... or maybe it will...

good advice

i found a nice webpage full of illustrated advice. click here to see it.

kid

i finally got to see transformer. i actaully quite like it, i'm not the transformer fans, but i like it because it reminds me of my childhood days in borneo. >_<

holland

i was sitting, reading and eating my poridge... and this woman came up to me and asked me if she could sit with me, because all the seats are taken. and i said yes...

that was the 1st time since i left brisbane that i could have a nice conversation with a complete stranger. >_<

it made my day, and i got a new destination to explore... amsterdam >_<

ominous

om·i·nous (adj) suggesting or indicating that something bad is going to happen or be revealed.

i had an ominous moment a few days ago, as i bluntly going to sandra's office. and yes i do have that feeling that it wasn't going to be smooth... and yep, it became true. 0_o

the bird and the bee

is a new band i guess, love some of their songs...

anyway i saw a wonderful website just now, i love it! great colors... feel a bit down, though, because all can draw is this little water drops. and i've actually submit them into a design competition.. oh well 0_0





i put my atm fave song lyrics in it >_<

one.

one question...'why you've always appeared in my dreams?' this is bad, and it got to stop. because i can't see us in the future, there will only be me... and someone else i've never met before.

tragik comik

there was a point b4 the easter holiday that i feel, i'm not smart enough to live my own life 0_0.

kota itu

rasanya aku ingin pergi ke kota itu, aku ingin bertemu dengan nya... memeluknya... dan berkata... terima kasih.

family tree

maybe i should start to built one

sitting buddy

this blog entry is dedicated to miss diane

ahaha.. hi diane, thank you for having such lovely thought >_< for a birthday present...

as years gone by...

sounds like a chessy drama flick, huh ? hihihi.. sorry for that.

i just wanted to say that a year went on very fast, it usually didn't take this fast to go to this time of the year, where u get older >_<

greens

i went to yogya this monday and fly back to jakarta the next day. i had to accompanied my mom to my uncle's funeral... i didn't really know him in person, but everyone said he was a nice person...

funny thing happened... i've graduated last year and i've been a professional designer for over a year and most of my aunts and uncles didn't know that fact? was i always missing? did i get so busy and get very caught up with my life? or maybe because my body size never get bigger after 9th grade, in their minds i'm still the 'little one' ... oh well, i hope that title makes me stay young forever...

i really enjoyed my flight back home, despite the tinny winy bits of wiriness... for the 1st time in years, i can finally see java island from the sky >_<. it's beautiful, the java sea is also beautiful, it has numerous shades of greens, then spots of browns... i wish i had my mom digicam with me... i wish we can all see this everyday...

it feels like we're having an affair...